You said you’d run away with me

If You Can’t Ride Two Horses At Once…You Should Get Out Of The Circus

I CAN’T SEE THROUGH THE TEARS IN MY EYES
I CAN’T BREATHE
I FEEL I FAILED
I WAS MEANT TO MAKE YOU SMILE
I WAS MEANT TO MAKE YOU SHINE
THEY SAID THIS COULD NEVER HAPPEN
THEY SAID WE COULD NEVER BE
ARE YOU TELLING ME, YOU LISTENED ?
So there’s no you and me?
And we can’t live this way forever?
You said you’d run away with me
THAT WE’D ESCAPE FROM THE ORDINARY
THAT WE’D ESCAPE FROM THE WORLD THAT TIED US DOWN
THAT WE’D ESCAPE FROM THE ORDINARY
THAT WE’D ESCAPE FROM THE WORLD THAT KEPT US APART
So now this is over and the world falls upon me
I never expected to be here alone
The shadows are forming as we burst into flames
Why does this end this way?

wtf…my biggest fear…she left…

i will find a way without you…

the end of nothing….

still holding on to something which i do not know…. she left me without a trace… not even a single word of goodbye….

depression…

pinili kong isulat ang blog na to sa tagalog para mailabas ko yung talagang nararamdaman ko… hindi ko alam kung ano nang nangyari sa amin ng taong mahal ko pero heto ako ngayon at hindi ko alam kung saan pupunta yung paghihintay na gagawin ko… masakit..oo masakit… mahirap yung para kang iniwan sa ere ng taong ayaw mong mawala sayo… hindi ko alam kung bakit kami nagkaganito at dumaan ang isang gabi na halos hindi ko na nakayanan at lumabas lahat ng emosyon na pinipilit kong itago… mahirap… oo mahirap… pero alam kong kakayanin ko… ayokong gamitin ang salitang “sana”… gusto kong isipin na magiging okay din kame… gusto kong ipasok sa makitid kong utak na hindi ako nahihirapan at kayang kaya kong maghintay… oo… kaya kong maghintay… pero… mahirap maghintay kung wala akong kongkretong pinanghahawakan kung ano ba ang estado ng relasyon namen…mahal ko siya..oo mahal na mahal ko sya at ayaw ko syang mawala sa akin….

10:45pm….wed ng gabi… sept 16,2009…